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"Big Up For Pärnu"

Like I said in one of my posts in Facebook: this last weekend was fucking crazy. My good friends Ilvz organized this BIG extreme sports fest "Kuldrula"(goldenskate) for the fifth year now, and it has turned really big.

The day before(friday) I went to my companys big summerworkshop thing thingie and it all ended up pretty NICE. Everyone was put into teams and we had some "challenges" to overcome: roadtrip diary, poemnight and a performance. Well the schedule was to be pretty tight, but we ended up doing the first two. I mean, haha, I skipped the poem reading part with setting the right mood for my team with my guitarrrrrä. And it was Soooo Güüüd.

Anyway, at some point I was smokin' around and I ended up trippin' to the main event- Gert and Lauri's performance. My eyes and hands were tied up and Some weirdo shit hitler chatter was going on and All kind of shit I had to endure. At some point I was just making the chicken thing, and I had to get some sleep...OH WHAT A HANG OVER I HAD THE NEXT MORNING.
I mean, free booze in unlimited quantities...ITS A NO NO!

Back to the Kuldrula part. I managed to get a ride to pärnu. I ended up taking the wrong guitar with me, spilling a litre of orange juice in the car and shit. You know when you're really hungover and hadn't had good sleep for awhile, you're clumsy as hell. But all in all, when the soundcheck was done and time was as far as goiing to the beach, I was really thrilled and excited. I mean, I saw all these people at the beach, and all of 'em were planning to see our concert- chillin' on the seaside/promenade, drinking, laughing, yellin' FUN. And when the time hit the right minute- FUCK! the tent was so crowded. I wish I could've seen my own smile. THANKS GUYS.

Just that, I've lived in Pärnu for 19 years now. Pärnu Beach is a very special place for me- a place where I always got the freedom to chill, look at the sea, think. Other days included all my friends on the beach and the special ones included a special person- romance. And Now that I'm living in Tallinn, I value that beach even more than before. ITS JUST FUCKING BEAUTIFUL!!!

After the show I was really tired, but a few drinks and the crazy party just ruined me. Or should I say saved me!:D I've never seen so many people IN pärnu- So many cool people.
So many friends, people that I know, People that I've met and people I hadn't seen for a long time. EVERYTHING together made up a fucking great memory and I wouldn't exchange this for anything...Except I would've wanted to dance with a special somebody...but the times will come. Instead of HER, I danced with the whole fucking club:D. The dj played everything I know- starting with papa roach and limp bizkit, finishing with tarantula from pendulum. And the dubstep stuff in the other room. OMFG.

I'm finishing with my day at the office now, going home and off to the rehearsal. We've got shit to put together for our Swedish show this saturday. Really excited about it. And again, I can go abroad for awhile. See some people, enjoy being a tourist or something else. W000000T!:D



Life is fucking awesome, but I feel the little part that is missing, not complete yet.
I'm happy to be where I am!!!
THank YoU MOM
M0r5k

Positivus Festival 09'

BIG UP FOR POSITIVUS!

On thursday night( day before Positivus) I ended up clubbin'(or something like that) with my good ol' chaps. We had a good time, met some fins and I overlooked at some locals and some celebreties pulling off a "biceps championship". Maybe the fact that I'm not that muscled doesn't attract me to that kind of "sports" or its the issue of not being macho enough. But all in all, its nothing that I see everynight, so I enjoyed.

I ended up pretty wasted and I only had a few hours to sleep till trippin' of to our gig at Positivus. We had set our mood for ultimate festivalling just before, so GOD DAMN how I and the other guys had waited for Positivus. We drove off like before every other gig, being EXACTLY late, so we had to step on it...or maybe I'm just paranoid. Like I said, we were so excited about the fest itself and we were supposed to be the first band of the fest, so we didn't expect a big show. But seeing the whole area for the first time and all the people..("Imagine all the people":D) FUCK! That made the festival experiance start with a huge boost.

We ran to our stage, which was pretty big and we had like 15 minutes to start with the soundcheck. I recognized some of our true fans, some other faces, but all in all, there weren't that many people. Everything taken care of, we slammed our hands together and went on stage...Song by song people gathered to see us- by the center of the show, there were so many people, that we went crazy. We did the best that we could and people enjoyed it a lot- Jumping, clapping, screaming....EMOTIONS that only an eyewitness could moreorless describe. And we got called back, so FUCK YEAH LATVIA!!!( It still pisses me off, that our backtrack system sometimes fails, but, cmon...

We got a whole lot of props for it and we really put a "WOW" on peoples faces- something that happens almost everytime, they just never see it comin'...;).

So after the show, we hit some hardcore smokes and the trippin' started. Beer- BEER- beer-...At some moment I found myself hangin' in a club tent(redbull something) and I just raved alone to somekind of jazz thingie. I bought a icecalled super special Mohijto and the raving began:D. At some point Karla saw me and we put up quite a show for the people who wouldn't dare to come along. Wohoooh, what dancers we are..hahaa. Yeah, so by the end of my drink, the woofers in that tent had killed my ears and we went off, to see what our gang was up to.

We found 'em near our cars, all rollin' and shit. Heck, we just had like fuckloads of beer and we had to get rid of it somehow- I don't think throwing away was a possibility...

At somepoint me and Mihkel(I think it was M) Went to see the beach-what a view. Before you get to the beach, they have a narrow pine forest. The road goes straight through this place where all these PEOPLE were just sleeping in the dangling beds: some couples were making out, kids chillin' JEESH, I wanted to do that, but not yet. So we carried on, being all amazed and so, till we came to the beach. The beach had 4-6 bars and a few clubs. I was totally amazed...there were hundreds of people, all dancing and trippin' so I was INSTANTLY dancing:D. It was soooo cool. Everyone smiles and is just havin' the POSITIVEST time in their life:D.(Yeah I've created some words). Mihkel knows how to juggle, so we picked up some pinecones and I insisted him to teach it to me...nothing came out of it, so we just enjoyed everything THE PARADISE PARTY BEACH :Dhad to offer us.

We partied a lot in our backstage, meeting all these people: The HAPPY ENDINGS guys were the best familiarization:D- an australian band, I didn't see their performance, but according to the other guys, they rocked. We drank all the beers in backstage and the next day, we got the whole blame...ROCKSTAR thing. Fuck the rules:D. But they can't do anything, but to make some publicity out of it...OH NO! We joined our forces with the australians and bought some spice from the spice tent(YEAH A SPICE TENT) and headed back to the beach to roll some joints.

Some minutes later Brainstorm started their gig...I forgot to mention that we squeezed ourselves into the schedule of Brainstorm, to say a few words to them and make a picture. I got a RESPECT from REinars!:D But oh man how wasted we were by that time. As they were singing in Latvian, we were like, fuck that shit...So we took our tents and went to organize that thing, before putting a HUGE exclamation mark down for the day. I just can't describe how we do it, but every second we are somewhere(very abstract what I'm trying to say) everything ends up a massive trip. My stomache muscles are still fucked up...

The night ended with me and Ilvz trippin' our own way to the car, 'cause we planned on sleeping in the car. We got even more wasted, just the two of us and I never got to sleep. I had to struggle with not puking anywhere. I didn't, and that felt really good, but by the time I was done struggling, Hannes and Joosep Showed up, so FUCK SLEEPING. We found this estonian Dj- DJ QUEST and we just pulled off some shit, to kill the time. Its not a good idea to sleep at a fest..cmon.:D. We took the guitar, played songs from some time to time- I can't remember anything about the time, it was never a thing to worry about. People woke up and who walked by and had nothing to do, ended up chillin' with us. So we met a lot of different folk. I'd like to say hello to the guy I jammed with...some latvian/american singer...DUDE YOU ROCK!

But when estonian police showed their face, we got scared...dunno why, but we didn't feel comfortable anymore and we went to the beach again- it was just before noon and the sun was fucking HOT! We swam a few times and just checked out the beach and the people- fucking awesome!!! At the beach I really got tired,  and when I got sunburned for the tenth time, I was too wasted to stay awake anymore. So when the guys left to fetch some food, I took a powersleep in the car. I remember people walking by and saying some gibberish in latvian, but I really didn't give a F. Just this one time, when some guy came up to me, being all pissed and shit, So I made really angry face FUZZED at him, and he left...

When the guys got back, they got me 4 winers and half a bottle of ketchup. IT WAS SOO GOOD! I got some energy and the trippin' began again...actually we just sat in the shadows of the trees, till Tom called. Me and Jos had to go to an interview with some huge radio. We both were totally wasted and when we got to the press area, we were pretty amazed- it was a pretty huge thing. We managed great, met a DJ ate some ice cream...GOT back...

OK since I can't remember the rest I'll cut the crap for you. Since I was too tired to stick around I jumped on Heikki's car and got back to Estonia. We had HUGE HESBURGER meal just before the border and WHOOOH...I guess I was already asleep...Again I can't remember everything so well.

POSITIVUS FESTIVAL ROCKS! The best festival experiance I've ever had. So many people to meet and so much to do. The vibe is sooooo sweet. I can't remember that I enjoyed any artist besides the DJ's in the clubs. Love it!!! I wanna say hello to all the people I met and special thanks for the staff- we really made a mess everywhere:D! SORRY!

Next year, I'm DEF THERE.

PS! The weather was FUCKING UNBELIEVABLE!!! I'm sunburnt everywhere, even my ass is, by now.

I'll add some pics, if I get some.

giving a hand to my parents and being a president

As I've already hyped being at my parents place up to the 5th level of heaven, I spent a whole day trippin' with my dad. I shared my thoughts and objective ideas on my work and he helped me out- back at him- I helped him out with ideas how to finish their kitchen and stuff...we ended up tripping everywhere and talked also about anything. It was really nice.

The last time I left from Pärnu, we hugged and I suddenly realized that I have to spend every moment I have with them and make a positive memory of it all...they're old you know. But Like I've already tons of times have repeated myself- its really nice to help out here and do chores, its still a vacation.

I just finished mowing the lawn and most of time I brainfunctioned the idea, why people are jelous and not proud. If I was a president, I'd use any mean to make my people proud of what they do and what the others do to make up unique nation. At the moment, as my thoughts and the people around me make up, people want to go away from here. Escape this land just to find other porrige mountains and fun everywhere else. But why not start from oneself and change. Its like WOM someone tells you a positive story/emotion and you go seek the same emotion from the same place...And ETC. So thats how the mountain grows.

Maybe I'm getting too wonderous with my thoughts...Maybe everything is just too sweet for me...well not everything I miss Kairi and my sis.

About my sis, I've learned the thing, I've had a sister for 21 years, but I've never known her. It makes me sad. But thats what happens if your country doesn't provide you enough to compete with your dreams...Thank god times have changed. Now idiots can even go to finland and build some shit just to make a tribal tattoo on their biceps and then drink the rest.

I'm just feeling the family importance on my neck. It feels super good, but then again, bring a lot of worries- I want everyone to feel perfect, then can I rest. ooh oho hoh WAIT. I gotta see and do everything to tell stories...or rather do and share everymoment of what I've experianced- if I'm not alone, it gives lot more credibility:D hahaha...

Ok now I gotta wash myself and fetch off to the siesta. IS gonna be awesome.

And ally! Do come back soon, I've got so many stories, but they all are fading...

Thanks for everything MOM and DAD

rauno